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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 19:11:11 GMT -5
Jadon kind of stood there in disbelief, he'd stumbled backwards a few steps, not expecting Noelle to actually shove him, and he knew he hit a nerve somewhere with her. He just couldn't get over how she was yelling. And what was she saying? Something about she couldn't keep the baby.
"I know all that already Noelle! This isn't about the fucking baby, it's about you lying and keeping secrets from me!" he yelled back, not screaming but yelling. He didn't want to seem intimidating or scare her, but he needed his message to get through to her. "I'm not the selfish one here Noelle, take a fucking look at yourself for once and stop trying to blame me for your problems!" he said, shaking his head a little at her, then turning away. He couldn't stand to look at her a moment longer.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 19, 2007 19:27:26 GMT -5
"I have never lied to you!" Noelle shouted back, just as loud. She started crying even harder when he yelled at her, and leaned her back against the tree, sliding down it until she was sitting. She was completely silent. The words Jadon had said were replaying in her mind, stinging with just as much pain each time. "Why would you say those things to me?" She asked softly, not yelling anymore. Her fingers went to the locket around her neck again as she looked up at him.
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 19:43:36 GMT -5
Jadon walked away, but stopped when he heard Noelle crying, a sound that sent shivers through his spine. He dispised that sound, that terrible gut wrenching sound of the one you love in pain. And he held the power to make it stop, but was to hurt himself to care. She pivated on his right foot and looked back at her, silent.
Sighing greatly he trudged back over and sat down beside her, not daring to touch her for fear of her hitting him or something again. "Because Noelle... you DID lie to me, not telling me about the you-know." he said, not wanting to go as far as to say 'abortion' to make her cry harder. "You should have told me that, the only reason I was so mad is because you waited 3 months and you told your friend before me, you can't even understand how much that hurt when you told me that Noelle...." he said, shocking himself. He'd never in his life been so open about the way he felt before, and hoped she could understand how much it was killing him to be doing that, but he loved her, and was willing to put himself up there just that little bit more.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 19, 2007 19:48:30 GMT -5
"I'm sorry, Jadon!" Noelle sobbed, wiping her eyes with her hands. She hated crying, and hadn't cried this hard since her mother died. "I was afraid that.. Well, that you'd do this." She said, shaking her head, bringing her knees to her chest and putting her head face down on her knees. She brought one arm around her knees, not looking at Jadon. But she couldn't stop crying. What he had said to her had hurt her more than anything else.
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 19:57:25 GMT -5
Jadon listened to her but kept mostly silent. He didn't know what to say, or what she wanted. Did she want his sympathy? His apology? His forgiveness? He didn't know really. Sitting there listening to her cry his hand flinched as he almost put it over her shoulder, put quickly stopped himself. He had sat down a few inches away from her, and debated whether or not to move in closer. "I know you are Noelle, I just, I need you not to keep secrets from me... Can you promise me you won't?." Jadon asked, looking at her.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 19, 2007 19:59:47 GMT -5
Noelle looked at him, tears still stinging her eyes. "I... I did something horrible. But if you want me to tell you, you have to promise you won't hate me, and you won't break up with me for this. Okay?" She asked, biting her lip. She had to tell him about Ryan... Or else she knew it would come back to sting her.
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 20:20:35 GMT -5
Jadon felt more anger building up inside of him, did he really want to know? "Oh God Noelle, what did you do now?" he asked, he couldn't take much more of her secrets and had to get out of there, and fast! He stood up and without so much as one glance took of back to the campfire. In some ways he wanted to know what it was Noelle was going to tell him. But then if all it would do is cause more problems he didn't. Eventually he knew curiosity would get the better of him.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 19, 2007 20:29:10 GMT -5
Noelle felt a painful knot twist inside of her stomach as he stood up and left. "So much for saying that you loved me, Jadon." She muttered, pulling the bracelet off and throwing it at him. He was too far away, so it landed about a foot from him. She stood up, brushed off her shorts, and began walking towards the main office. She had to go home... She couldn't be here with him anymore.
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 21:11:04 GMT -5
Jadon heard Noelle mutter something, then heard the sound of something behind him. He thought she had thrown a pine cone or something at him. The small bit of light showing through the forest reflected of the bracelet, and Jadon steped over and picked it up, examined it, and put it in his pocket. If she didn't want ti he could always return it later and spend it on video games or something.
Jadon had to admit, walking away this time was a lot easier than he had expected. H didn't know why but he felt like he'd avoided some big catastrophe.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 19, 2007 21:18:22 GMT -5
Running her hand through her hair, Noelle turned around. She couldn't walk away from him. She caught up with him, and grabbed his arm, gently. "Jadon... do you love me?" She asked, looking him right into the eyes. She wasn't yelling, she wasn't angry...
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 21:27:23 GMT -5
Jadon flinched slightly as Noelle touched his arm, but he didn't pull away. He kind of just stood there looking at her confussed. "Yeah Noelle... You know I love you." he said, looking at her in the eyes. "It's just, I don't even know you anymore, because the Noelle I fell in love with wouldn't be keeping secrets..." he said, refering to the other thing she had to tell him.
He looked at her, trying to figure out what it could be now that she had to tell him. To many horrible thoughts came to mind and he had to stop thinking about those, and just focus on what was happening in-front of him.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 19, 2007 21:32:41 GMT -5
"I'm trying to tell you, Jadon! But you keep walking away..." She trailed off, biting her lip softly. She blinked away the tears that were forming in her eyes. "I was so mad and hurt by what you said to me the other day I..." Noelle shut her eyes for a second. "I slept with someone... And I don't know why, and I'm so sorry you don't even know it, Jadon... Just please don't be mad. I'm still getting over how horrible I felt about the baby, and you didn't make it any better, and on top of that my mom always brought me to camp when I was little, and just... My life is so screwed up right now, Jadon, but I love you, okay? I swear to god, I do." She blurted out, more tears pouring down her face.
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 19, 2007 21:54:05 GMT -5
Jadon riped his arm away from Noelle, and gave her a discugusting look. "We're done." he said simply, biting his tounge to keep from saying anything bad. After all he didn't want to give her an excuse to cry even more. His stomach fliped and he was hurt as he walked away, anger building inside of him. He'd kill whoever she slept with, he was that mad. 'Slut!' he thought in his mind, he was so upset.
Walking back to the campfire he brushed them all of as they all looked at him. He shook his heads at them when they tried to talk to him and brushed his way past, sure that he had gotten in the way of 1 or more people. Getting out of the sight and earshot from everyone, Jadon sat down on an old wooden bench, far away from Noelle and everyone else at camp.
Put his hand to his head as he sat down, Jadon's head just kind of spun around. Everything with Noelle had gone to hell in the matter of a few days. Sure he didn't react the greatest when she told him about the abortion, but to go cheat he couldn't understand. And then her blaming her unfaithfulness on everything else Jadon thought was allto typical.
Finally the anger became to much and Jadon punched into the side f the wooden bench, immediately his knuckles began to feel a sharp pain, then blood soon followed. "Fuck..." he mumbled, looking at his bleeding hand. But not really caring to do anything about it.
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Post by noelle ♥ talyors on Aug 20, 2007 9:42:31 GMT -5
Noelle's mouth dropped in disbelief. "Jadon, wait!" She called after him, biting her lip. She couldn't hold the tears that were stinging in her eyes any longer. She blinked a few times, still stunned that he had just broken up with her. Her mouth felt like it was filled with cotten balls, and impossible to swallow. She wiped her eyes with the backs of her sleeves as she watched him go. She had never felt more alone. Atleast when her mom died, she had had her friends and everything. But they were all having a great time at the stupid campfire to care about Noelle.
Tugging her sleeves over her hands, she turned around and walked in the opposite direction that he went. She wanted nothing more to just drown or get lost in the woods... Anything. Why the hell had she done that? She wouldn't have done it if he hadn't said to her what he had. His words were still replaying in her mind... This isn't about the fcking baby, its about you lying and keeping secrets from me... im not the selfish one here, noelle... And most of all... We're Done.
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Post by Jadon Calloway on Aug 20, 2007 14:49:51 GMT -5
Jadon swiped away some of the blood on his hand with the bottom of his t-shirt. He must have realized how ridiculous he would look walking back into camp, but he didn't care. Or at least he told himself he wouldn't care about a lot of things these days.
After his hand stopped bleeding Jadon looked around at everything silent, Noelle hadn't followed him, or could she even with how fast he left? Jadon couldn't stop running or what Noelle had said to him 'I slept with someone else.' she couldn't of known how much the words had hurt him. His eyes began to sting with tears slightly that he blinked back, he hadn't cried since his parents divorce and wasn't about to start now.
Jadon just wished he could rewind time for the two of them, or at least taken back when he said they we're over. He knew it was only his second thoughts and doubts making him want that. But it felt like Jadon really didn't just want to let go of Noelle like that. He knew she had hurt him a lot, but she really was sorry. And maybe if he still had some faith in her and knew she wouldn't do that again they could work things out. But lately it just felt as if she we're a different person to him.
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